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The highs and lows of neng_fused

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Solar car...YEAY!!!!

Teehee!

Sepatu??? Terompah??? Kasut but hitam??? BUKAN!!!!!!!!

........It is the Nicco Team's Solar Car!!!!!


Yey, Shah, Ib-Gem and I received a Moro bar each today. WHY? COZ WE NAILED OUR SOLAR CAR assignment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!! CLAP2!!!!

This is certainly one of the few sweet moments i have of my course. Our solar car underwent tremendous modification, which also translates to us four spending heaps and heaps of time at the workshop: cutting, grinding, sanding, coating, filling, sanding, filling, sanding again, then paint spraying, sanding again, spray lagi.....! Exhausting, iterative process i tell u! Not to mention the time we spent loathing & criticizing watsisface "pakcik berus". Plus, our principle was "biar drag kite tinggi, tp jangan jd team yg plg corot...sudeyh...." Modest bunch of ppl, arent we?

What was awesome was that the outcome came as a complete surprise. We actually thought our drag coefficient Cd to be much, much, much higher. We were so fed-up with it to the point that none of us wanted to keep the then-damned solar car. (obviously aku ar yg simpan last2.... ppuan...simpan sume bende...resit2 pak n sav tahun lepas pon maseh simpan lagi...= P)

Anyhow, our final Cd as calculated by Dr My-laptop-never-works Mark Jermy is of the value 0.12. We were only ranked the sixth/seventh in the class (upper half ok....). Nonetheless it was good enuff to earn us each a chocolate bar. =D

After 3+ years studying at uni, ini kali pertame kiteorg menang something. The prize may just be a choc bar, but pergh! We all bangge siot!!!!! Huhuhu! It was worth it.

On a different note, I'm glad to share a happier news of which my blog (aka aku) obviously needs. Yeah, i do feel good aye? =D

Friday, May 25, 2007

Bad day

Not a good day today.

- got told off for something which was completely and entirely NOT my fault.

- chaired a meeting where i almost lost control, yet again. Maybe Im not a good speaker. Maybe im too emotional. Terlalu garang. Maybe I'm just soo ignorant and indifferent that people manage to walk all over me. Owh, maybe im just not cut out to be a leader. Heck im too meek, anyone could scream and shout at me. Ive tried to be understanding, yet in the end, I was the one manipulated. And here i am, a VP. true what ppl say, u cant meet everyone's needs and wishes. I have even been very argumentative & confrontational towards people who have looked down on our club, who thought that they could treat us as they demn wish. Pardon me, ive given everything to the club. We are, after all, in the same boat. But same boat or not, i dont expect ppl to have the same dedication and interest as me. Fully aware of that, i took the steps to be considerate. To try device some sort of a way out for any problem the club faces. Goodness, I have tried. Still, all sorts of shit is thrown at me.

Why did i bother? Cliche as this may sound, but coz of "passion". Good ol' passion had put me where i am today. If i was in this for the fame, or to make myself known, or to have the chance to meet menteri2, or to get paid, heck..i wouldnt get anywhere. I would receive NOTHING. Most of the times, my patience and rationality had really been put to test. God knows how ive cried, stressed, complaint etc. Yet i am still here. Like it or hate it, I am still around. For the love of the art had made the hardship seems pointless. The sense of satisfaction, joy and pride which i feel when i am performing the art, wipes away all the tears, pain and embarassent. Because dance, is a part of me.

But I must move on. I reckon i have contributed a lot. It's time for me to let go. For i am no longer able to put up with all those drama and excuses and reasons. They now weigh more than passion. it has now become a burden. I have had enuff. I reckon i'll let some one else to try on the shoes eh?

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

sTingle

Hie!

It was an ordinary Wednesday today. As i made my up to the Glade, i grabbed a copy of the uni's weekly mag, Canta. Most of the time, i find the mag a total waste of good quality paper. But that was no longer the case up till two weeks ago, when Polly Cosmos* became a regular writer and has her own two-page spread. Her section was called "The Girl's Guide To: ..... " . This week, it was our guide to DATING.

Here are the two paragraphs which left a huge impact on me. Particularly because it's exactly how i see the matter. It's what i deemed the most accurate evaluation of the scenario.

"But let's face it. Sometimes you just get sick of the question dreaded by all singletons: "So how's the love life?" And you cant help but find yourself thinking, "oh hell im stingle (still single) and everyone is bloody hattached" (happily attached - required to be pronounced with a very french-like sort of 'h' to give the word its full effect)!

Now this is not to say that girls NEED boyfriends. oh no. We dont need boyfriends for anything, ............................................ We are all very capable of looking after ourselves and leading fulfilling lives without boyfriends. But, the point is, that as human beings we want to have someone special in our lives. It doesnt make our lives FULL, it must make our lives slightly better, that's all! "
Polly Cosmos*, Canta Magazine issue 10 may 2007
Bless Polly for being able to put those down in words sooo precisely that i dont feel the need to explain or comment much further. =D
So, the anthem of the week shall be: "sTingle, and luvin' it!"
Hhahahahhahahahah!

Monday, May 07, 2007

L.O.V.E. Counsellor

I've been wondering...Ive been giving out hardcore, deep and philosophical advice and tips of LOVE to others since ..i dont know when...but feels like i do it all the time....But the catch is, that particular area of my life is actually non-existant. Lifeless. Zero.

Then who am i to provide those soothing words of advice? Why did i even bother, knowing that my own lovelife sux?

Coz it actually, in a weird and awkward way, makes me feel good about myself. I feel great when people smile coz of LOVE (well i hope they are after i gv them my two cents worth of thought). Yea...it's true that sometimes some things need to be told even when u know ppl dont wanna know abt them. But hey, LOVE is cruel, and complicated at its worst. So... a lil 'warning' at the initial stage wont hurt, i reckon. If a r'ship blooms, I'd be happy too. I'd be soo pleased wif myself that i'd even do the zapin in the middle of the road. that's how fulfilling it is to be the love guru.

Here comes my honest confession:
Breaking up hurts. it hurts soo bad that i intend to not let others experience it. if i think i can help, i'd give anything to not let others to go through the self-destroying process called the break-up. LOVE shud bring joy and happiness. It shud give one a sense of contentment and motivation. It must be aided with sincerity and honesty. It shouldnt be polluted by break ups and the shit (oopppsss....). It just should not.

So, feel the LOVE people.

FEEL................ THE....................... LOVE.........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nite2!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

10min entry

Wokeyh...it's 350pm...this shud be done by 4pm. On the dot.

Current state of mind and soul: tired. bored. ignorant. nonchalant. indifferent. confused.

Current obsession: peanut butter & jam sandwich...(influenced by my American flatmates)

Current desire: to be somewhere else, doing something else, and to be emotionally and spiritually fulfilled.

Current stress: project. Havnt got any concepts/ideas. Showing a workbook full of minutes of meetings will certainly not be impressive. And also, econs test. Why neng, WHY????

Current conflict: I do not know what i want. I dont know what to do. I am merely a small dot in a vast 3-d space. Heck, i dont know where the origin is. even if i do, I wouldnt know what good it could provide me.

Current short-term aim: Get everything done and over with. Give it my best shot? Yeah, maybe....

Nothing exites me anymore..(except dancing dat is...it makes me high...)

sigh!

(owh demm...i'm off by five mins....watever...I'm indifferent, remember?)

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