Unsolved

Person A and person B have come a long way.

At times, they were friendly though every caution was taken as not to appear too eager. But most of the times, they were trying to ignore each other’s existence. They made sure they didn’t cross each other’s paths; words were not exchanged between them unless they had to; because any decent conversion would always end up with one of them, if not both, getting hurt. If they were forced to be in a group, one would look one way, the other would turn to the other way. They never see eye to eye, figuratively and literally. So visible was this that people were talking, drawing up conclusions and making fun, which obviously did not help them both. So the gap between them became wider, and neither bothered. Distance was good. It was safe.

Ten years passed.

Person A and person B have grown up. Time instilled in them maturity. Years and years of not seeing each other’s face had done them good. For some weird reasons, they communicated in cyberspace, in a normal friendly manner. Birthday wishes were often exchanged without failure every year. Yes, it was just the internet but they communicated nonetheless. This was seldom, yet it showed, if not signaled, that the two have let bygones be bygones. They are ten years older now after all. Heck at one point, they even hang out together! With a group of friends, of course! True, awkwardness was existent despite their best effort to be casual. But, any improvements were appreciated.

Two years passed.

Person B does not want to hang out with person A. Person B has nothing against person A. Mind you, it is not hatred but he just ….can’t. He can’t even put his finger on why this is so.

Person A has nothing against person B either. But, person A does not understand why Person B does not want to see her. Person A does not know what the problem is. How can there be issues when they rarely communicate? They were normal as far as giving testimonials in Friendster was concerned even though that was as often as Siti Nurhaliza singing off-key. Still, that’s a sign of friendship right? Right? If person B can be nice to her in cyberspace, and has nothing against her, then why the cold, harsh treatment? She thinks, shouldn’t they be over this? Is the past still haunting person B? Had she done something offensive to person B (AGAIN)?? She does not think so. She tries to evaluate and make things easier to comprehend. Often she fails.

But friendship does not work one way. That person A is certain about. If this friendship (or what is left of it) is to deteriorate completely, then so be it. She can’t help it if person B can’t stand the sight of her, for whatever reasons only God knows. She isn’t willing to try to comprehend in order to fix the problem anymore. The exhaustion of having to understand the complexity or mystery of this “friendship” had caught up with person A.

So she is letting it go. Some things are better left as they are. Unsolved.