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The highs and lows of neng_fused

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Unsolved


Person A and person B have come a long way.

At times, they were friendly though every caution was taken as not to appear too eager. But most of the times, they were trying to ignore each other’s existence. They made sure they didn’t cross each other’s paths; words were not exchanged between them unless they had to; because any decent conversion would always end up with one of them, if not both, getting hurt. If they were forced to be in a group, one would look one way, the other would turn to the other way. They never see eye to eye, figuratively and literally. So visible was this that people were talking, drawing up conclusions and making fun, which obviously did not help them both. So the gap between them became wider, and neither bothered. Distance was good. It was safe.

Ten years passed.

Person A and person B have grown up. Time instilled in them maturity. Years and years of not seeing each other’s face had done them good. For some weird reasons, they communicated in cyberspace, in a normal friendly manner. Birthday wishes were often exchanged without failure every year. Yes, it was just the internet but they communicated nonetheless. This was seldom, yet it showed, if not signaled, that the two have let bygones be bygones. They are ten years older now after all. Heck at one point, they even hang out together! With a group of friends, of course! True, awkwardness was existent despite their best effort to be casual. But, any improvements were appreciated.

Two years passed.

Person B does not want to hang out with person A. Person B has nothing against person A. Mind you, it is not hatred but he just ….can’t. He can’t even put his finger on why this is so.

Person A has nothing against person B either. But, person A does not understand why Person B does not want to see her. Person A does not know what the problem is. How can there be issues when they rarely communicate? They were normal as far as giving testimonials in Friendster was concerned even though that was as often as Siti Nurhaliza singing off-key. Still, that’s a sign of friendship right? Right? If person B can be nice to her in cyberspace, and has nothing against her, then why the cold, harsh treatment? She thinks, shouldn’t they be over this? Is the past still haunting person B? Had she done something offensive to person B (AGAIN)?? She does not think so. She tries to evaluate and make things easier to comprehend. Often she fails.

But friendship does not work one way. That person A is certain about. If this friendship (or what is left of it) is to deteriorate completely, then so be it. She can’t help it if person B can’t stand the sight of her, for whatever reasons only God knows. She isn’t willing to try to comprehend in order to fix the problem anymore. The exhaustion of having to understand the complexity or mystery of this “friendship” had caught up with person A.

So she is letting it go. Some things are better left as they are. Unsolved.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Filler post, anyone?

Salam.

Get ready for a full blast of random *beep*!!!!!

After years and years of thinking that Im over MTV, I find myself staying up and watching the 2008 MTV Asia Awards, held in my beloved Malaysia. Leona Lewis is crooning her 'bleeding love'. Too bad i missed PCD's performance earlier on. Damn, seeing their toned up bods wouldve forced me to jump on the treadmill. Have been trying my best to ignore the existence of my treadmill. It's strategically positioned in the tv room, right in front of my bedroom. So yeah, one can say that ive made a good job of ignoring it! ;)

I am 160cm tall and i weigh 49-50kg. My family thinks im dead skinny. and thanx to the many illnesses ive had had this past 5 months, my so-called skinny-ness is termed terminally dangerous! haha! But seriously. I dont think I am. The muffin top is still there, and so is the booty. So I wasnt really comprehending when the Doctor told me to pile on some mo weight! "But doctor! baju raya kamek suma dah lekak!" (bj raye saye sume dah siap) Owh noo!!!

Wait...Super Junior is performing now...Gosh, i think i see my ex Choi Siwon..hurm, still cute. Kui3! Lately, I found myself going gaga over Channel V's Vj Dom. Gosh! He's gorgeous! And that voice...mind you, I watch Popparazi solely because of him! Heh! Bocor rahsia...

My owh my! Work is stressful, wif a capital S. So much so that i am kondifen (confident) that I can lose weight by simply thinking abt it.NOT JOKIN'. And often to overcome this, I crack jokes and tease my colleagues or play pranks on whoever crosses my path in the office. (sorry Kak Cher!) And guess what? I ended up coming across as inefficient, lazy, not serious and downright clueless to some people (as in the big guys up there). I beg your pardon? Excuse me for trying to add some colour to this sombre and dull world of engineering consultancy. Really, to have a chiller or not is not exactly a matter of life or death. Geez... And i quote The Joker, "Why sooo serious?????"

Went to watch the second X-files movie the other day. My advice? Go watch reruns of CSI for it probably will give you more satisfaction. The only memorable thing abt it, in my opinion, was Dana Scully beautiful red locks.

There you have it. If you were trying to find some useful info or intellectual post, then i apologize . This aint the place, for now. ;)